oh manz. i couldnt have performed worse than that. i think i really really really really really screwed it up lor. must have failed. or i should say i definately fail already. i could kill myself for my performance like that man. so damn bloody screwed up lor. sighz. i didnt know what i was doing in the first place. my mind was like TOTALLY blank. and then whenever they shout something, my mind would go like:'what's that?' it's not like i dunnoe or anything lor. i think i just got really freaked. and so my mind just blacked out. sighz. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! grrr.. i really think i suck in that area lor. sighz. do i really DO NOT suck in any area at all?

changed blog's name. couldnt think of anything..clara suggest something to do with flower..cos she was moon orchid..and then fatimah was ashenlily..then she asked me what flower i liked. so i said tulip. and so she came up with !!!'nameless tulip'!!!..sounds kinda terrible. settled with black rose in the end. but still sounds terrible too. okay. this is getting kinda irritating. absolutely dont understand how come when jasmine blogs here. everybody starts reading my blog. and then when she dont blog..nobody reads my blog. -sobz- seems like she has some kind of attraction. i dont know what that is..hmz..lemme think..her 'shuai'ness?..!!!!..*pukes* *pukes**pukes**pukes**pukes**pukes**pukes**pukes**pukes**pukes**pukes**pukes**pukes**pukes**pukes**pukes**pukes**pukes* oh manz. sick. sick sick sick. okay. i have never thought of that. okay okay. im disgusted enough. better stop blogging just in case some other disgusting thoughts come into my head.